Tuesday, February 17, 2004

I gotta learn to be careful what I say…

People have been saying that for years. "You need to be more careful what you say.... " I put the "..." there because usually there is a "when" or a "concerning" followed by a situation or topic, however, not always. Anyway, I used to have this goal. It was, I thought, pretty simple. "I want to be 'they'." Which of course meant following up that goal with what it actually meant. It meant, I wanted to be the "they" from the phrase, "They say, blah blah blah". Historically, I've always said pretty much whatever i wanted. I did this for a number of reasons. First, I would guess, is probably because I have an ego that is rather large. Second, I was taught from a very early age, by a widowed mother of three boys, to stand up for yourself, say what you think, and don't let anyone stop you. As a 21 year old widowed mother of three in the late 1960's this was probably an attitutude that kept her alive or at least sane. However, the problem is that outside of her own family, no one really was influenced by what she said. Any negative context here is certainly not intended. I am mearly trying to explain that she was probably rarely considered "they". I, on the other hand, being the author of 9 books, being in a position of management with my company, etc. it seems that at least at times, I am being "listend to". As this is happening, I am finding that I am praying that phrase more and more... "God, anything I have said, if it is of you, may it be like a seed planted. Anything not of you, may it whither away, never to be remembered." With authority comes humility, or maybe you just become a politician... who knows... Anyway, I guess I need to watch what I say a little more... maybe... We will see if I do or not, at least I am becoming aware that I might need to.. and, as they say, knowing is half the battle. Its late, i'm rambling... maybe this will make more sense in the morning... --Moose